I admire her..always have!! she has got such strength and inner poise, though i assume such poise comes with deep sorrow. She lives everyday as if she had always been alone as this is the norm..the usual. Keeping herself busy through out the day by doing all those little things..things that only waste the long hours of the day..and time is no longer a factor to worry about wasting. I think of myself spending all that time alone with no one to take notice of the smallest habit evolutions to the slightest events that take course. The silence of the day yet alone the night that could be deafening life is already full of so much pain and anguish on momentarily basis..you often stumble and feel unsure when there is no one there to catch you at this very instant you begin to fade. Being a strong lady she managed, though you can see right through her..this sense of obligation to preserve her being. I sleep well at night as many others with the comfort of knowing she is fine.she impacts us right to the core even if we don't have full awareness of it. And the important question still remains "Does she know??"... i pray that she did.
If one day I'd be alone...i pray for the poise..strength and grace of my lady...My lady..I'll never forget her pride! RIP
8/6/2006