Out of a simple need of understanding the concept of time...why is it that i have completely no sense of it?? I always have this illusion that i have enough time..by that i mean that i have enough time to plan on being a good student, enough time to be healthier, enough time to dress up before leaving the house.. so no accessorizing in the elevator and no make-up in the car and no wearing the belt just before the elevator door opens ...and shoes!!! shoes are supposed to be on before actually leaving the apartment...time to make good friends who are good enough..time to take that course or develop that talent. Enough time to resolve all my issues and admit to them...rise up to them. I have an illusion which is that i have enough time to live and plan my entire life. When freezing time and looking at my "illusion" i know it sounds stupid ,but i have become delusional about time. So now i see that time is no friend of mine, i feel that time will be over before i reach this state of happiness and comfort,before i even notice. And i believe that time will abandon me leaving me all alone in the dark in this timeless place.I hate time everything concerning it...i hate the sound of the ticking clock that is synced with every heartbeat.. i hate the word deadlines...imagine a line you cross it you're actually dead...i hate it when in an exam it's always time's up...i hate that time is a factor in forgetting the good and the bad.I hate how it's always too late to get what you want and how we grow old by time and people you used to love and be each other's world just forget about you not because they want to..just becomes your now only a fragment in their memory if they still can use their memories. I hate time and i know it hates me back. You learn to live with your enemy..i mean not everyone who says is your friend actually is...how many back stabbing people do u know??? But what if your enemy is the only evidence that your still alive and present...time..TIME...TIME that is all you have to conquer and it's all you have to respect.Hate it if you will but respect it and it pays you back...don't we live in a world today where it's all about who you know and how can they help you??? that is time...a matter of mutual interest... So i guess time is our ultimate test... it's proof of our existence..our failure, rise and demise. So to all the ticking clocks out there...respect.
I've never doubted my ability to judge and read people, and here you are justifying every thought i had about you. it doesn't matter what i think and how i came to my conclusions. here's whats cool though, we have almost nothing in common and that makes you just 100 times more interesting to be friends with.
ReplyDeletei really don't get if that's a compliment or an insult..but well the title is nonsense sense..and lucky you for u never doubting i guess!
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